Outfit: Late again

the Late For Tea Dress, found sweater, thrifted coat and scarf, old boots, hat, pin from Porto.

When my friends in high school were dating a new boy each week, I was dreaming of my first kiss. When they went to universities, I held back and went to learn photography for two years. When my friends started getting married, I was breaking up with another boyfriend. When they were starting to raise kids, I was taking in another dog found in the street. When my friends made important career decisions, I was bouncing off ideas for my future job. When people around me finally start earning decent money in their early 30s, I still barely earn enough to pay my taxes each month.

Yeah, I'm kinda late in life for stuff. But you know, so what?

Sure, there are times when I think that I'm the queen of all losers. I have no decent skills and no money and my biggest life accomplishment is that I learned how to charm people so that they can like me. But that's not really true.

The truth is that I don't want to do things the regular way. I don't care for diplomas and marriages and, God forbid, kids. I like my cat and dogs, I like my boyfriend and I like my silly clothes-sewing-practically-no-income job. And if that's a bit irregular way of doing this thing called living, then there sure are some prices I have to pay, like being late to stuff in life, and I am deeply aware of those prices. Oh, I pay.

If I have a regret, it is that I wish I laughed more when I was a kid and kissed more when I was in my early twenties. But at least I grew up to kiss who I want and I'm learning to laugh when I feel like it. I may not know what my job will be in 5 or 10 years but I actually don't mind that. I'm probably going to be late to everything and I console myself that due to this trend I will also be late to dying. Which is pretty cool because I think 'late' is about 100. Not many people can say they will live for a 100 years with this much certainty.

Wearing: the Late For Tea Dress, found sweater, thrifted coat and scarf, old boots, hat, pin from Porto.

Photos by my boyfriend.
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2 comments

  1. Here's something else we have in common aside from being kindred spirits! haha...

    Oh gosh, can I relate. I almost feel like i've been waiting to talk about this. I also hope I get to live a long healthy life so I can fit in the rest of the stuff that I will come late to.

    I look at some of the teenagers I know and they are more self possessed, confident and well adjusted than I was at age....25! I've always had a kind heart thankfully, but so many very basic things it's taken me so long to have -- whatever amount of confidence I have, self discipline, etc...

    I mean, I often think: i could have feasibly started my own business YEARS ago. It's not like i would have made money right away, i'm barely making any now, it takes time, but I could have started like 10 years ago. It isn't applicable to me though, this logic makes no sense because I just didn't know it was possible and didn't believe in myself enough, even though i've wanted to be an entrepreneur since forever. Just random fantasies of wishing I was farther along than I am now.

    But truthfully, where I have the most difficulty is some very important foundational things I missed out on in my early life, which is why I am a late bloomer to basic stuff :-) Weeping in the middle of the night exists sometimes, but so does knowing how very very very many blessings i have. As long as I have my health, safety, food, shelter, freedom, love, fun, humor, creative expression, expression in general -- i'm alright! :-)

    I'm glad you feel you are alright as well! <3 <3 <3

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  2. Hi Klara, thank you for liking my Instagram photo's so I could discover your lovely blog :) I like your style and your posts about (slow) fashion very much! Love, Lisette

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