Expressions


When you make one change, others can follow along like an avalanche. So I did something that I'd been thinking about for years and suddenly a lot of things occur to me and some things happen that I consider good. One of them being my obvious trousers revelation (why did I take so long to understand? Rolling my eyes here), the other --cutting my hair (wait for my next post to see the extent to which that happened). But something more important occured to me about my self expression. I guess I've been toning myself down a lot, not just on the blog but in real life as well. Here, I've been trying to always appear pretty more than anything else. Vain, I know but who could blame me? A blog is a blog. No one wants to read a blog of an ugly girl.

Thing is, though, pretty is not my main mode of expression and I've suddenly found it very confining and lacking. I'd call my main mode ingénue. Yeah, I'm 31, so what. Ingénue doesn't mean infantile. So I'm clumsy, goofy, naive and warm hearted. I still am an adult: I work and earn money, I do laundry and clean my flat even though it's against all that I stand for, I have sex, I get drunk, I sometimes eat ice cream for breakfast and I occasionally admit to having been wrong. I also make the funniest faces and laugh my head off at my own silly jokes. Big deal, that adulthood.

It's not that I've been insencere with you all. On the contrary. I was very sincere in my naive thinking that I needed to be this or that in order to get this blog to work. And there's definitely nothing wrong with believing that. It just doesn't work for me anymore.

Bottom line is, I want to be more open here now. More open with my writing and more expressive in my photos. You're going to find more bloopers kinds of shots around here, in regular posts. I also hope I won't hold back from communicating my opinions anymore. I honestly don't need to weigh every word and chisel each sentence to perfection (which I'm never going to attain anyway so why bother). So here's to that. Keep your fingers crossed for me so that I don't go back to my old restrictive ways. They were not healthy.

I'm wearing my late Grandpa's sweater made by my Granny, a cap also made by her, a thrifted jacket, old jeans and boots.
Photos by my boyfriend.


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Finding balance

Time for the big reveal: I've been wearing more jeans lately. It started with wearing them around the house when I work and when I do chores (skirts can get in the way) but now I also wear them out of home more and more often. It's a nice change, I think. I'd been restricting myself to only wearing skirts and dresses for a long while now, just to feel like my personal style is consistent and continuous --but as it turned out, in the end there was no logic to this thinking. Through the last year I've been feeling a nagging need to change something about my style but I couldn't wrap my head around what exactly that was supposed to be. I may have finally found my answer.

I guess this is it: nowadays I like to compose my outfits around balancing the masculine and feminine aspects of my clothes. As you may have noticed, when I wear a skirt, I often put it together with a shirt blouse because it adds some needed sharpness to the final look. Now, with trousers added to items in everyday rotation, I can wear feminine tops like this one and not cringe at the thought of it being overly cute and girly. I think with the realisation of that tension between the feminine and the masculine qualities in clothes, I have finally arrived at the right place and can be creative with my clothes again. It's so good to get rid of a block in any area of life, it feels like a breath of fresh air.

I am wearing old jeans, thrifted blazer, Clarks mary-janes and blouse c/o SammyDress.
Photos by my boyfriend.


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Bloopers!

And now, for a change of pace, let's have another installment of bloopers! Also known as funny outtakes from blog posts. I usually post them on instagram (often in my stories) which may be a legit reason to follow me on there. But you can also take a look here for the first time I gathered enough photographic evidence to my general clumsiness and goofiness.

So, without any further ado, have a peek behind the scenes and see my prettiest photoshoots instantly lose all their grace.

Fighting insects.

Accidentally stepping into something and/or tripping.

Having a hair accessory flown off the head.

Chasing said accessory.

Apparently trying to dislocate head.


Pretending to have fun because *things* you so funny!


Being generally goofy and having a cartoon leg.


Thank you. That's enough for now. Lights off please.
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Bid the ocean farewell

It's time to say goodbye to Porto --actually by the time you're reading this I'm already settled back in Warsaw. This is my last post from the beautiful Portugese city and since I'd discovered I was really taken with the ocean (which I'd only seen for the first time while in Porto!), I wanted to have these last photos taken on the beach.

What an amazing force of nature the ocean is! It's also funny how easily we ascribe certain emotions and human states to it: rage, calmness, cunning, mystery... while in reality it's just water. Lots and lots of salty water driven by the moon and by the sun.

What's not to love?

I am wearing a dress I made from a self-drafted pattern and vintage denim that was a gift.
Also wearing: thrifted sweater and blouse, old flats and tights.
Photos by my boyfriend.
It's time to say goodbye to Porto --actually by the time you're reading this I'm already settled back in Warsaw. This is my last post from the beautiful Portugese city and since I'd discovered I was really taken with the ocean (which I'd only seen for the first time while in Porto!), I wanted to have these last photos taken on the beach.

What an amazing force of nature the ocean is! It's also funny how easily we ascribe certain emotions and human states to it: rage, calmness, cunning, mystery... while in reality it's just water. Lots and lots of salty water driven by the moon and by the sun.

What's not to love?

I am wearing a dress I made from a self-drafted pattern and vintage denim that was a gift.
Also wearing: thrifted sweater and blouse, old flats and tights.
Photos by my boyfriend.
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Porto Botanical Garden

What do you do when you are like me and you don't like to do the regular sight-seeing but are in a foreign city and actually feel like you should go out and see something? You go out wandering. Take the first street around the corner and see where it leads you. Or look around and just go in the general direction of a place you can see from afar that interests you. You go on, look at the everyday stuff: blocks of flats, stores, markets, cars and people and notice things and details. Anyway, that's what I do.

And that's pretty much how we ended up in the Botanical Garden in Porto.

I wanted to get on top of the nearby hill because it was so spectacular from beneath, you know, just a wall of rocks with a couple of small houses overlooking from the top. So we went down one street and then another, and passed some weird neighbourhood with scary-looking buildings that made me think of some of the darker places here in Warsaw, but then we turned around the corner and some clean and posh houses appeared and that made me think "this is totally unlike Warsaw". Then we walked some more and came by a large open gate (not a sight often seen in Porto!) leading to some greenhouses and we were intrigued. We entered and then there were cacti!

Needless to say, we never made it to the top of the hill. But the botanic gardens were a wonderful spot that I'd love to visit again. I think the Portugese really have an eye for arranging greenery. All the parks and gardens we've seen were breathtaking.

I am wearing: a skirt I made myself from a self drafted pattern and thrifted wool.
Also wearing: a tee from a local supermarket, moon necklace, pin bought in Porto, thrifted jacket, old shoes and purse.
Photos by my boyfriend.

What do you do when you are like me and you don't like to do the regular sight-seeing but are in a foreign city and actually feel like you should go out and see something? You go out wandering. Take the first street around the corner and see where it leads you. Or look around and just go in the general direction of a place you can see from afar that interests you. You go on, look at the everyday stuff: houses, blocks of flats, stores, markets, cars and people and notice things and details. Anyway, that's what I do.

And that's pretty much how we ended up in the Botanical Garden in Porto.

I wanted to get on top of the nearby hill because it was so spectacular from beneath, you know, just a wall of rocks with a couple of small houses overlooking from the top. So we went down one street and then another, and passed some weird neighbourhood with scary-looking buildings that made me think of some of the darker places here in Warsaw, but then we turned around the corner and some clean and posh houses appeared and that made me think "this is totally unlike Warsaw". Then we walked some more and came by a large open gate (not a sight often seen in Porto!) leading to some greenhouses and we were intrigued. We entered and then there were cacti!

Needless to say, we never made it to the top of the hill. But the botanical garden was a wonderful spot that I'd love to visit again. I think the Portugese really have an eye for arranging greenery. All the parks and gardens we've seen were breathtaking.

I am wearing: a skirt I made myself from a self drafted pattern and thrifted wool.
Also wearing: a tee from a local supermarket, moon necklace, pin bought in Porto, thrifted jacket, old shoes and purse.
Photos by my boyfriend.

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True colours

I'm usually not one for wearing black and white but the colourful streets we've been wandering around in the last days really called for an outfit that would be just a background to their awesomeness. I guess the true colours of mine lay more in the walls of the houses here rather than in the clothes I am wearing in today's post.

I'm wearing a skirt I made from self-drafted pattern. Fabric is beautiful quality 100% suiting wool.
Also wearing: jacket, old boots and hat, thrifted purse, shirt from a local market and pin by Cafe Moscow.
Photos by my boyfriend.
I'm usually not one for wearing black and white but the colourful streets we've been wandering around in the last days really called for an outfit that would be just a background to their awesomeness. I guess the true colours of mine lay more in the walls of the houses here rather than in the clothes I am wearing in today's post.

I'm wearing a skirt I made from self-drafted pattern. Fabric is beautiful quality 100% suiting wool.
Also wearing: jacket, old boots and hat, thrifted purse, shirt from a local market and pin by Cafe Moscow.
Photos by my boyfriend.

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